Logish Paradox

Give Me My Due Respect

Make all the little jokes you want about me but have your limits. Give me my due respect and don’t go overboard.

People know me to be overly tolerant. In accumulating and containing my anger, know that it has an expiry date. This is your warning. I demand respect.

Logen

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Be Your Own God of Destiny

Every now and then, we contemplate the purpose of life. This endeavour is a paradox of stupidity and wisdom; stupid for three reasons: the answer we seek is resolutely unanswerable, the endeavour only creates more questions, and we look in the wrong places for answers. 

Though overpowered by these three reasons, the wisdom gained is far too compelling to forgo. The endeavour hits the core on what each of us lives for in this life.

In a crass sense, life has no purpose because our eventual destinations are the same -Death. While true, this truth is woefully incomplete. Life does not only encompass destination, it has a begining and is in itself a journey. While one cannot control one’s birth, the power to decide still exists in this stroll towards death, the journey.

We must now face that the purpose of life lie in the eyes of the beholder. It is through one’s choices that one creates his purpose. Nobody, including god and luck, has a say in this. Thus, the only god one should have in controlling his life, is himself. 

Logen

Mandy Tagged me with this Meme

Answer the following questions:

1. The person who tagged you is ?

Mandy Low

2. Your relationship with him/her is?

She is a very close friend. At one stage we used to be best friends.

3. Your impression of him/her?

Crazy joker with an understanding nature.

4. The most memorable thing he/she has done for you?

Too many things. But in summary she’s been there for me when I needed it most.

5. If he/she becomes your lover, you will ?

Hahaha. You’re making me laugh. That won’t happen.

6. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she have to improve?

Read my previous answer. But as a friend, I’d advise her to… (Mandy, you know what I always tell you. Haha.)

7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will ? 

The most that would happen is that we will no longer contact each other.

8. Your overall impression of him/her?

I feel so warm inside. Hahaha. Inside joke…

9. How do you think people around you will think about that person?

Approachable, extremely open and sociable. Has a mental streak in her.

10. The characteristics you love in yourself are?

Loyalty, honour and the depth of my insights. I am from the noble house of Godric Gryfindor.

11. On the contrary, the charactereristics you hate yourself for are?

Fear and paranoia. They stop me from thinking logically.

12. The most ideal person you want to be is?

I’ve said this before a long time ago, the Buddha and Albus Dumbledore. Though I’d prefer to be my own version of them.

13. For people who care and likes you, say something to them?

Let us unite against the dark bomoh. Evil will not and must not prevail!

14. Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel.

Nope I don’t want to know.

Note: Logish Paradox will have less regular updates in light of the final exams. However, I’d try to maintain it at 2 posts a week.

Logen

My Intepretation of Depression

I’ve spoken about depression in my last few entries. Before my words are misconstrued, here is my intepretation of what depression essentially entails. Depression is an overwhelming sense of anger, despair, or sadness that persists for over two weeks. It has the power to destroy a person’s sense of being and personality.

On this basis, from Secondary 3 onwards, I had an onslaught of despair and sadness, lasting for up to six months. It ceased for several weeks before repeating itself. Despite small relapses, I recovered between the end of 2006 and start of 2007. These relapses are seldom as acute, but if I get paranoid about them being permanent, it become agony.

Thusfar, I’ve avoided talking about my triggers. I’m afraid to be judged for them and admit myself to be oversensitive. Those triggers have a life of their own. It’s not unlike looking at an old photo and having a video montage of happy memories replaying in your mind. Contrary to happiness, those memories cause me misery.

Enough said. I’ve exhausted my braincells and my body is aching for sleep. To my ever-so-silent readers, do give me feedback on what you like and dislike about my site. Suggest topics that you’d be interested to read about.

Good night.

Logen

P.S. Mandy I’ll post the meme you tagged me on another entry, on another day.

The Imbalance of Tears and Fears

The week leading up to my relapse was pure agony. I seem to have forgotten how I crawled out of the abyss two years ago. But with the relapse, I’m remembering some details on the arduous journey.

During this period, I was in a contemplative mood on my good days and on other days, I had spasm of fears and tears. The following reflects my thoughts in the course of recovery.

Like the thunder storms that occur as nature’s way of correcting imbalances, life is the same. Our saddest moments indicate issues unresolved lurking within our minds, awaiting corrective action.
When facing these problems, it’s good to take a proactive and contemplative approach. Through objective contemplation, we learn the causes of our distress. And with the cause known, we choose to change what we cannot accept and accept what cannot be changed.

Understanding pain, just makes it easier to let go. While paranoia happens when we don’t have all the cards on the table.

I’m determined, at this time, to let my brain lead my heart away from adversity. I shall rise from the ashes like before.

Note: In those trying moments, Harry Potter and Dumbledore were by my side (the books). This explains my sentimental feelings towards the books. Not forgetting that Dumbledore reminds me a lot of my grandfather.

Logen

Bear a Mask and Live with it’s Consequences

Things seem to be heading for the worse. I don’t know what’s happening to me. Earlier I was fine and all of a sudden I feel despair. It happened so fast.

It’s a repeat of year 2005 and 2006. From depression, I recovered with minimal aid. Yet I’m sinking into the abyss again. I fear the agony of despair, anxiety and loneliness. Much worse the fear of fear.

Upon running through memories of my dead grandfather, I thought about how disappointed he would be of me if he was still alive. Maybe that expresses the sentiments of my family. I wouldn’t know. How about friends? I do not know. I don’t want to know!

I am contaminated and broken on the inside. Fooling myself that I was powerful, I fronted a mask, drove all resentment and misery inwards. Combined with my oath of silence, my soul withers in pain.

Now that the entry has ended, there is a calming effect upon me. Enjoy it while it lasts…

“Lost in the darkness, try to find your way home
I want to embrace you and never let you go…
Almost hope you’re in heaven so no one can hurt your soul…
Living in agony ’cause I just do not know
Where you are” -Somewhere, Within Temptation

Logen

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I’ve got a funny feeling that my spam-protector is throwing out some innocent comments. If you are one of those people, please contact me through logishblog[at]gmail[dot]com. I’d like to resolve the issue if there’s one.

Thanks.

To friends who try to reach me only to no avail, sorry. The term is hectic and you know how crazy it drives me. Though this is no excuse to neglect friendships, I can only apologise. My line is open to emergencies no matter what. In writing this, I think Harris is most well-deserving of my apology. See you soon.

Logen