08/10/08

The Manipulative Force That Tilts The Balance

I know this blog is supposed to be on hiatus. Face it, I’m bored. So, for the next hour, the hiatus has been lifted.

For the past 2 days, I was studying with Zhi Wei and Eugene for the finals. I have to say, Zhi Wei acts like a restless 5 year-old kid. And I have spent lots of time rolling my eyes or sighing in exasperation at his antics.

Anyway, during our study breaks (a.k.a. lunch, tea), the three of us have been discussing about certain forces within the world. It seems the balance has already started to tilt against that force. I’m both surprised and not surprised at that. I overestimated the powers of manipulation from the force. And perhaps, I underestimated the wits of those influenced by the force. Most are beginning to awake from the illusion.

Above all, I believe in karma, the greater force of cause and effect that affect everyone. It is simply a manifestation of the consequences of our actions. This, I believe, is the downfall of the force. It has neglected any thought of consequence.

Let me be personal about it. I dislike the force, and its disregard to honour, loyalty and respect. Yet, I needn’t partake in any action against it. Karma has taken care of that and will continue to do so, as long as the force persists in its present form.

Besides this force, there is another one of chaos. I and some chosen ones must partake in ceasing this force. It is necessary, for it is affecting the balance. And while I take stock in karma, I believe in this case karma is taking too long. Yet if we do take action before karma does, we will be karma itself.

If you read that and do not understand, don’t be alarmed. I have a knack for talking in riddles and in circles.

Logen L.

P.S. Hiatus is back on.

07/28/08

Not Another Post On The Exams!

It’s the period when I complain and worry about the exams. It begins on 16th of August.

While I’m hopeful about covering my required topics for all 4 modules, at the back of my head there are some nagging doubts. Previously, I had no discipline to study a few hours at a go, at a quick pace. Why should now be any different?

I got through the last exams by last-minute cramming and the results were surprisingly good. Nonetheless, I can’t bear overnight cramming again. It is a torture. Especially when you end up with a bad headache and exceedingly horrendous temper from the lack of sleep.

Anyway, I apologise to my friends for not keeping in contact for the past weeks. I don’t wish to give any excuses for my bad habits. And this apology goes to Harris especially. I feel bad about it.

That’s all.

Logen L.

07/23/08

Lethargic and Bored

I don’t even know what i’m doing in school. I feel like a zombie; my body acting on its own accord, against what my mind wants. So tired…

Logen L.

07/20/08

The Hidden Village of The Dragon

This Halloween, look out for the Hidden Village of The Dragon. What am I talking about?

On October 31st 2008, I’m getting my class to dress up in costume. Eversince my obsession with Naruto, I’ve founded my own ninja village, my class. And allocated clans to separate groups of my classmates. Very soon, a website will be built to provide information on the various clans and the storyline.

Costumes will be standardised clan-wise and authority-wise.

On another note, I’ll be participating in my first cosplay event this August, hopefully. The exams are just weeks away and I need to source for my costume. The lack of time is a huge factor, especially when I intend to ship the costume over. Oh yes, and I need to study…

Besides, if I go alone, it’d be really weird, so I’m looking for friends to go with me. Don’t worry about the costume. I can source it for you.

Logen L.

07/7/08

My Worries On Public Speaking Were Unfounded

Last Thursday, I met up with Mrs Wendy Lai, who had been my form teacher during my upper secondary years back in Beatty. We had the opportunity to meet in Ngee Ann (my current school) because, she was taking her students there for an accountancy-related event.

During the two years in upper secondary, she used to be my mentor when my team participated in a few business competitions. We had sacrficed afternoons and sometimes mornings just for the sake of those competitions. And when our team won third place for both years, it was worth it.

My team not only had gained experience but had bonded with Mrs Lai considerably. Therefore, you can imagine that we were really happy to catch up after my graduation two years ago.

Anyway, as we conversed about how the class was like back in the day, she suddenly asked if I was doing any emceeing in Ngee Ann. When I answered ‘no’, she asked why not.

In trying to answer her, I remembered last semester when I stumbled in my presentation. And it seemed thereafter that I have developed a sort of mental block towards public speaking. This I told her.

Instead of looking exasperated, she reminded me of the business competitions, both of which I had presented really well. When I tried to tell her that my fiasco of a presentation was an indication of how my nerves had affected me, she told me that I had no problem presenting my team’s business plan in front of hundreds of people for two years. And it reminded me about how coolly I answered the judges’ questions, criticisms and praises.

I won’t analyse what went wrong on that day when I stumbled. But to think that a presentation in front of 40 people affected my nerves was laughable indeed. I can only resolve to prove to myself that I can do what I did two years ago.

Sometimes, it takes someone to remind you of what you once were capable of. Thanks Mrs Lai.

Logen L.

07/3/08

The Post About Nothing

Very often, I take on more than I can chew. I bought more domains than I can handle, judging by the amount of time I have. This explains the less than frequent entries.

On another note, I’m losing my bloody patience with someone. It’s not going to take much more for me to hate that person. The kind of hate where you waste your time to plot a fucker’s downfall. I’ve done it to someone else before and I felt guilt. But this time, if it happens, I will do what I have to do guiltlessly…

A joke made continuously over a month is not funny. And considering that you know nothing about me, give me my due respect.

Oh well, if you want to find me around the web, here is my other blog:

It deals with domain name trading and investing.

Logen L.