Author Archives: logish

02/5/08

The Irony of You

Under the starry skies shall we lay for eternity. Calming acoustic sounds drift from the distance. It is upon the sands of time that we sit, listening to the whispering seas. Discussing the cosmos of life and death and as ever shall I appreciate your voice.

As the cool zephyr sieves through your hair, like it does the palm trees, your ethereal face shan’t go unnoticed. And while we huddle for warmth, we draw our breaths as one. Thereon, eyes closed, your scent is adequate reassurance.

With suddenness, I gasp; you are gone. Too bad. This is but a dream… Irony…

Logen

02/3/08

Procrastinating Again

The solution to inaction, most sensibly, is action. Yet, while I say this, I cannot bring myself to open the Microeconomics textbook.

The reasons are a combination of simple ones. Firstly, I’m procrastinating because I have better things to do. Secondly, I know for sure that I have four heavy chapters uncovered and the thought of it makes me want to forget it. Lastly, because of my unproductive attitude, I may as well postpone studying to a later date when my brain will be more receptive to the information learnt.

I know that these reasons are stupid. But do tell me if you ever find a sensible reason to procrastinate.

Logen

01/31/08

Public Speaking Blunder

I blundered through my presentation today. Public speaking is considered one of my fortes, so you can imagine how angry I was with myself after the screw up.

Prior to my presentation slot, there were four other presenters, all of whom were excellent. To add on to my nervousness, the person who first presented chose the same topic as I. Because of my anxiety of not reaching the benchmark set by him, I blanked out after my second sentence. This consequently triggered a chain reaction, which impeded my flow of thought. I ended up reading from my note card, which lacked substantial point to back whatever I was saying.

As I moved on in my speech, I made noticeable pauses looking at the audience desperately. I was considering walking out and giving up. But I couldn’t bring myself to do it.

In my opinion, the great public speakers are those who have flow of thought and can connect with their audience’s mentality. The lack of a rehearsed feel in one’s presentation is a plus. Sadly at my own judgment, my performance today was a fiasco.

That said, I take my hat off to Joey, the person who presented the same topic as I. His presentation today was the best yet.

What I have to get into my thick skull is: Focus on the message you intend to convey during the presentation; not how much you’re going to screw up because your competitor has done a swell job. I have really to get rid of my self-defeating attitude.

Logen

01/27/08

The Lack of Thoughts

These days I haven’t been writing much thought-provoking entries. The lack of time and prescence of mind are the main reasons.

However, I promise worthy entries in time to come. Many people know me to be intolerant of racism. Well, in general I frown at discrimination but have learnt to pick my battles. Therefore, in mentioning this, I wish to write various entries on discrimintation that eventually leads to a major entry, which reconciles the various concepts.

Aside from the above, I know that I have neglected my life list. It is a list of my goals, which I want a substantial amount  completed before my demise. Hence, during the coming vacation, I want to attempt contact juggling and brush up on my writing skills.

The Logish Paradox site will be refurbished and organised, of course.

Oh yes, I’ve forgotten about the poor bonsai in the box. I bought it months ago to gain inner peace and patience in waiting for it to grow. Indeed, I’m still waiting for it to grow because I never got to planting the seeds. But the anticipation of growing a bonsai plant has already brought me inner peace.

They really should sell imaginary bonsais instead. Then I can imagine a bonsai growing without the hasle of maintaining its life. For goodness sake, I killed a cactus and you have no idea how remorseful I feel.

So, this is all. My revision for the exams will begin on this coming Wednesday.

Logen

01/26/08

The Music I Listen To

People have been asking about the kind of music I listen to. With a quick check on my cellphone, which doubles as a music player, here are the bands and artistes:

  • Within Temptation
  • Groove Coverage
  • Cascada
  • Nightwish
  • Gavin DeGraw
  • David Bowie
  • Alice Cooper
  • The Beatles
  • Simon and Garfunkel
  • Annie Lenox
  • Story of the Year
  • Celine Dion
  • D.H.T
  • Ayumi Hamasaki
  • Ambeon
  • Chiodos
  • Liz Phair
  • DJ Styles
  • Rihanna
  • DJ Crawford

My favourite band is Within Temptation. If you know me for long enough, you’d know that I love to dwell in fantasies. The music by Within Temptation allows me to catch glimpses of my own world, the world I had created when I felt lonely. As much as the world of Harry Potter appeals to me, it is also not my place of belonging.

Let me digress a little. I’ve realised in these few weeks that I should never be ashamed of being myself. I had forgotten about this simple quote by Eleanor Roosevelt: “No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.”. Never again.

The below video is an edit of the movie Labyrinth, coupled with the song, Somewhere by Within Temptation. Oh yes, if anyone is wondering what contact juggling is, it is shown in the video.

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“I’ll find you somewhere…

I’ll keep on trying, untill my dying day…”

Somewhere by Within Temptation

Logen

01/24/08

Pre-Exams Syndrome and Leadership Judgment

The period preceeding the exams can get exceptionally crazy. However the Lunar New Year is helping with lightening the mood. I did some shopping with Zhi Wei and Lian Hui.

Anyway, I apologise for the tone in which I delivered the message of my previous entry. However, the judgment remains. A leader is one who chooses to accept his leadership, and in turn, leads with a sense of direction.

While a leader may disagree with the team, he is obligated to listen to their views and suggestions. The strength of a team lies in its unity, diversity of perspectives and ability to allocate tasks efficiently.

For this subject, my views have ended.

Logen

01/21/08

A Person’s Identity Consist of Memories, Or Does it?

I used to be able to organise my thoughts quickly. But the lack of practise has reduced me to chaos and confusion.

Right now, I merely seek to find myself and the multitudes of unwritten insights I once had. The feeling of apathy is undescribably mundane. It is especially alarming when sweet memories of the past no longer pull your heartstrings. What more when you can’t be sure if the memories you hold dear stay intact.

At times I gaze outside to admire the dark expanse of night, taking in the silent winds, only to realise that in the battle of life, I have lost many people. Perhaps I made some mistakes, but I shan’t be so arrogant to claim all responsibility for the blunders.

I apologise that through these mere few paragraphs, I have lost you in my words. What I am trying to say is, I feel as if I’ve been drifting without direction. I have lost focus of my prorities and even though I desperately search the past for direction, I cannot remember how I was and how I did things. As much as the snippets of memories reveal, I’ve made mistakes but it takes two hands to clap.

To put it succinctly, I want to be back on form and am trying to.

Logen