04/25/08

Solitude and Crowds

I was in a horrible mood at the end of school. The feeling accumulated throughout the week. Perhaps I was too used to the peaceful solitude I had during the holidays that I forgot that people are cruel. You would have hoped your worth and presence wasn’t taken for granted… Although I have much to say about this, I’ll shut my gap.

To add on, I was beyond pissed at having crappy lecture theatres where you get to see less than one-quarter of the screen and sit on chairs that are linked with other people. The combination resulted in vibrating chairs whenever someone stood up just to look at the screen.

Not to mention, some lecturers really should quit their jobs. In plain terms, my lectures were a waste of time because I’d have understood more while self-studying. In even more simple terms, I’m bloody pissed because I was made to feel like an idiot who cannot comprehend a supposedly simple topic.

Sighs… Let go of the anger and resentment…

You know what, I prefer to be alone…

Logen L.

04/23/08

Averse to Hair and Itching

Instead of last week, school began this week due to chicken pox.

I screwed up my hair with the hair cut. Actually, this is a subjective view. I’m not as averse to it as my friends are. But I admit, this wasn’t the hairstyle I wanted.

As always, my hair has too much bulk to pull off a certain look. Therefore, I’d be doing some repairing by bleaching it brown. Not only does this change the colour but it also thins my hair (in theory that is). If this doesn’t work, I’ll be seeing my neighbourhood barber to see how he can salvage it.

Oh well… I’ve got to source for a salon that can fulfill my eccentric hairstyle requests in the future. And someone needs to give me lessons on managing unmanagable hair.

Besides the hair issue, my eczema has worsened after the chicken pox episode. I’ve currently increased my dosage of antihistamines to no avail. Well, if the itching continues, I’ll become unpleasantly temperamental like before. I was told by the doctor that my eczema was stress-induced but I’m not sure if I’m stressed. Unless you count getting pissed off…

Thinking about whatever is already starting to piss me off again… Why am I the unique one to get some stupid skin condition…

Logen L.

04/17/08

Beat Procrastination By Focusing On Your Goals

By now, you would have been aware of my knack for procrastination. I have complained about it throughout my blogging life and yet, I have done nearly nothing about it.

Recently, I read a section of the NLP book and was goaded into thinking about it. This section talked about outcomes, the outcome of a goal. It implied that we should refer to our goals as outcomes, because the whole point in setting a goal is to attain the outcome. In referring to goals as outcomes, we are reminded that the focus of the goal is the outcome.

Furthermore, it predisposes that people always have an outcome, in whatever they do. This desire could be conscious or unconscious. For example, you could be arguing with a friend. This indicates your desire for him to agree with your view. At this stage, you could try and serve your outcome by controlling any anger. Yet, if the argument escalated into verbal abuse, you would not have served your desired outcome.

Naturally effective and efficient people constantly think in outcomes. They instinctively question themselves if what they are doing are congruent with what they want. It does make sense, doesn’t it. To unconsciously check with yourself if whatever is happening is falling into your outcome(goal). And to take steps to correct the situation if your goal isn’t reached.

Now, how does this relate to my procrastination behaviour? I have a tendency to get distracted. Half the time, this is how I procrastinate. I’d come across a funny video online and neglect my tasks at hand, because I believe time is on my side. By the time I awake from the spell,  three hours would have passed.

However, if I possess the ability to think in outcomes, wouldn’t it reduce the procrastination. After all, procrastination for me is more of a distraction and bad sense-of-timing tactic.

At the initial stage, it requires conscious effort on my part to be aware of my purpose, goals and outcomes. Once it becomes habitual and second-nature, it’d be easier.

For the past five days, I have been battling procrastination by using this technique. It is damn tough. The first few days, I allowed myself to be distracted for six hours before accomplishing two-third’s of my outcomes for the day. Today is the same, but slightly better. Well, good habits don’t come easy…

Logen L.

04/11/08

Who’s in My Class? Shocked…

I finally checked the class list to determine who had made it in the same class as me. I was shocked, for more than one reason.

Firstly, I was pretty sure that at least ten people from my year 1, semester 1 class had made it into the new class. Nope, fat hope. Six people. Out of the old class, only two guys (inclusive of me) made it to this class. Oh well…

Here’s the other reason why I was surprised. I was thinking about how my Year 1, semester 2 class would react to certain people in my class… I’m sure as hell fine with whoever I am talking about. Hahaha. Controversy because of hair.  That’s all I can say.

And I had thought I could have the quiet country life in the new class. Sighs.

Logen

04/9/08

Down with Chicken Pox

I turned in before dawn today. It was unusually cold and I was shivering. Curious about the temperature, I checked my wall thermometer expecting it to be around 24 degrees Celcius. It was not.

I have high fever. The worst part of it was, I couldn’t sleep with the nasty headache. I spent the night worrying if it was chicken pox (my sis had it), dengue or hair-straightener-poisoning. If you ask me, I have no desire of the first two. The wait period is both 2 weeks, one has the chance of giving me scars and the other requires that I have IV needles stabbed into my forearm.

Anyway, it turns out that I have chicken pox. Sighs. School begins on Monday and I’m going to miss the chance to build a good foundation for my modules. I guess things don’t always go our way. I have to put off the salon visit too.

I intend to self-study during the MC period. And I can treat it as extra holiday. My foot!

Logen

04/9/08

Overcoming Fears and Phobia

Some days ago, I mentioned about testing NLP (Neuro Linguistic Programming) techniques and get back to you if it works. I haven’t tested it yet, if you are wondering.

I need to have sufficient understanding on the NLP techniques first. Once I’m prepared, my first test would involve overcoming my fear of cockroaches. After a recent scare from Harris, when he tried to kick a cockroach at me, I decided not to live with being controlled by this fear.

The reason why I haven’t called my fear a phobia is because I can watch Oggy and The Cockroaches without feeling squeamish. That’s a cartoon by the way. Oh well.

Here’s a more realistic picture of my fear…

My last cockroach house-invasion four years ago, left me running around the house screaming. I was on the phone with a friend, and I’m sure he must have gone deaf when I spotted the huge flying cockroach. My parents were out, so I retreated into my room. I psyched myself into running out to grab the Baygon once the coast was clear. It was difficult as I kept imagining the flying bitch waiting to attack once I opened the door. I did defeat the cockroach eventually but the whole house was oily with Baygon residue after the battle.

So, hopefully before my 18th birthday, through applying NLP techniques, I would have eliminated my fear of roaches. Friends, if you want to help me, don’t scare me with them.

Watch this space. And watch a demonstration of NLP below (used to help Ellen quit smoking). To make this clear, this isn’t hypnosis.

Logen L.

04/8/08

The New Semester’s New Look

School semester begins in a week. It’s time to stress about my hair.

Here’s the plan:

  1. Self-straighten my hair on Tuesday, which is today.
  2. Print a sample picture of the hairstyle I want, and make an appointment with the salon.
  3. Go to the salon on Thursday for the haircut. Explain to and show the hair dresser my desired hairstyle.

It should be quite simple because this time, I am clear on what I want.

If the outcome is a success, I’ll post the picture. If not, I may still post it. If it looks like donkey ass, forget it. Hahaha.

Logen